Now that the feasting of Thanksgiving is over, the world has rolled back into its place. Once again, there is only the reality of our lives to deal with. Holidays take us out of our worlds for a moment, suspending worries and concerns. But today, the concern, the unknown path, returns.
For me, the unknown path is my evaluation for a kidney transplant on Wednesday. All I know about it at this point is that it will be a full day of testing, interviews, and whatever else they do. Not knowing exactly what they will do is rather disconcerting to me. Wondering if I will actually receive a transplant is disconcerting. How I will fare physically after surgery is also disconcerting.
There are so many questions? Will the surgery itself take too much out of me? Am I looking at months of recuperation? Will my body accept the new organ? Will we even be able to secure a donor? Will I be able to tolerate the anti-rejection medications?
This is definitely one of those “trust God” situations when the only thing one can do is rely on God to guide and protect. I intend to move forward down this unknown path, knowing that I can only see a short distance ahead of me, knowing that the road disappears into the distance and goes on into a place I cannot see. The only way I can do this is to trust God with all my heart.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not depend on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will direct your paths.
– Proverbs 3:5-6