In just a few hours, my path takes me toward the unknown. Today is the day I have been anxious about for weeks. I will be evaluated today to determine if I am a good candidate for a kidney transplant. My doctor insists that I will have a longer life, and a better quality of life, with a transplant as opposed to daily dialysis.
I am comfortable with dialysis now. After more than a year, I have accepted dialysis as my lifeline, and change is frightening. Surgery is frightening. Being weak again during recovery is frightening. But today a friend called my attention to these words:
Sometimes what you’re most afraid of doing is the very thing that will set you free.
I intend to hang on to that wise thought. I intend to summon my tucked away courage and move forward one step at a time. I intend to meet with my medical team today and to trust God for whatever comes of it. I intend to be brave enough to travel the unknown path before me.
I am grateful to have a God who holds my future in loving hands. And though I cannot see the path ahead, I have a traveling companion I trust completely. Thanks be to God.